Work in progress contd

Right. Ive had to change the lighting. Not sure how i feel about it. Mostly i work in poor light conditions. Why? Because the light as it presents itself is one of many materials and I’m interested in working as much as possible with what is to hand? Why? That’s for another time. But also because i like not being distracted by detail. Poor light means i can work generally and not get painterly? Why? That’s for another time too because the main point i want to make here is one of the great struggles one faces is the encroachment of the landscape. There’s the encroachment of the figurative too of course and in this painting I am now struggling with both. In fact let me add a third – the encroachment of the symbolic. What? I mean the human brain is good at identifying pattern, or rather it is a pattern maker. Regardless of whether pattern is intrinsic to nature, which it is, the encroachment is limiting and if one isn’t careful, one starts to think ooh – something is presenting itself here, something to be interpreted, or even ooh look I have painted a landscape, a figure, a symbol. But this would mean surrendering to the superficial, the surface where we spend all of our lives already. The echo-chamber of our own brain (aot mind) where pattern is just repeated data on a feedback loop of degrading value.

On another note I’ve noticed that a lot of abstract painters are into scratching their paint – in a sort of neurotic extension of this so called mark-making in art. If i ever start scratching then it means I’ve failed.

More New Work (in progress)

Turbulence

Tension

Entanglement

Essence vs Appearance

Im an interested party to the painting. Don’t be authentic, allow authenticity – thats the struggle.

Keep going until there’s an Event eg might be picking up a smear of paint hanging off the side of the canvas with a roller and printing it across the background until it’s all used up. The Event is only ever conjured. It smacks of accident, slides in from the side amidst the chaos structure and distraction. It cannot result from intent. It can only be allowed to happen.

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We exist in this Holmesian space don’t we? This clue drenched crime scene where PROBLEMS are SOLVED. Sherlock Holmes and the Metabletica. The Platonic Clue that clues us all together. Splash patterns, tool marks, evidence of intent, motive… But what if we are Unclued? What does that look like? Beautiful anarchy. All these philosophical mind experiments inventing new templates. But what happens when we shed our templates entirely? Shed the whole question-answer cause-effect machine? Demolish our shared temples and our personal shrines? Stop going outside and start the real journey? Answer.

New work

Untitled 100/100/4cm 2024

At some point painting becomes about going from an authentic response to what’s not yet on the canvas (raw materials, tools, state of mind, state of world, everything etc) to an authentic response to what IS on the canvas that has become its own world. That’s not necessarily an aesthetic consideration or painting for effect, but an interaction as free from idea as is possible. Risky business inviting catastrophe.

Turbulence

Tension

Entanglement

Concealment

Revelation

Untitled

From the distance i hear the opera of a Lidl being built

We medieval children think cathedrals are external

And that over their construction we have some control

How would we know if the universe vanished?

And if we vanish how will the universe know itself?

Come on, we don’t ascend to knowing do we.

The way is down. Always down.

Also what happens when language is withdrawn?

A flattening. Language lends dimension.

And if counting stopped?

Stillness. Mathematics lends movement.

Without words and numbers a blackbird in flight from bush a to bush b

Is a line joining shapes on a canvas.

Do i want to imagine that absence?

Of course. A reimagining of a world not destroyed by words and numbers

Intrigues me.

Language after all, failed with the first metaphor.

It fixed us, trapped, between things, excluded.

It has only ever described, proscribed, ourselves in relation.

The first word destroyed the world

Because at its utterance the world became merely

Like a world

The ‘wine dark sea’ no longer the sea but a thing like a thing in relation to another thing all within a grammatical hierarchy.

A place with its own presence but colonised by language.

Now to be honest I don’t mind.

The struggle between thing-in-itself and language is a beautiful thing in itself.

It’s why art is.

It’s why I’ve always strived to write metaphor-free poetry.

My interest lies upon the tense membrane between language and the world.

Post script

Why are you so against illustration in your art?

Because illustration is a form of opinion and therefore uninteresting

Or rather opinion is limiting to the point of self-destruction

It’s the by-product or effluent of language in league with the senses defining our surface world

Why are you interested in idealism, formalism and abstraction?

Because I’m interested in bypassing language and our senses as these are what our world is built from and not what the world is. They are superficial and belong to the surfaces of things.

Update

Ive made a lot of paintings since my last post and Ive been in India for a few months (not painting at all). Rather than try to go back and tell the story of each new painting I’m going to give more of an overview of where I am with painting now to help me organise my thinking around it.

The blank canvas lays on the floor in the basement for days. Days. Sometimes ignore it, sometimes afraid of it. resent it. hate it. Tell it to fuck off. Fuck. Off!! turned all old work around or stacked it so can’t see it – can’t be influenced by it. So don’t attempt a version of it. There’s a struggle going on. It’s not action vs inaction, it isn’t confidence vs doubt. it’s pure tension. Where’s the tension. in me or between me and the world. Subject and object. Human and material. being and becoming. Behaviour of painting vs behaviour of not-painting. crisis. At some point think fuck it just put some paint on as a foundation or something. DO SOMETHING. Pick up brush, open paint, Jesus that takes some doing. Like a roar. angry roar. just paint thats there. Leftover house paint. A brown white or sth. Perfect ground. Earth. Neutral. Plough it. Part poured on. Big brush. Fast. Was just going to do the ground but now pouring on iron filings and my body is asking “what are the fucking rules for this one then?”

Activate the material until it starts to lose or has lost its workability that is, its potential to be activated with a paintbrush

That is not to say that the material ceases to be active. That’s why i like the materials i include. They’re unpredictable and uncontrollable. Iron oxide explodes on contact with liquids. Iron filings will continue to oxidise, cement will continue to absorb carbon dioxide, all the materials will continue in relationship with eachother sometimes visually sometimes not. And there’s a time limit on brushability.

Authenticity. A particular kind of truth of object unto itself. A brief interlude of human-nonhuman relationship that has authenticity, that is, a not entirely anthropocentric be-ing with its own share of object-ness. A balanced-ness. Neither a Kantian thing-in-itself nor an illustration of human intent but also not an illustration of either. That is the problem i engage with.

Is it possible to produce a non-illustrative work of art or can it only be, at its most authentic, an illustration of the struggle to produce one? No I don’t think so and I think that my work is therefore tragic as all art is, because it cannot escape illustration. So I have to be interested in the tragedy. At best I can only make art that illustrates itself.

Why is it important to ask the question?

I don’t know, Im just a human being human.

Why am I interested in or motivated by the idea of non-illustrative art?

Because i am interested in the idea (and here an idea is also an object), that an object is an authentic object in itself if not within itself. This is one of those regions where human language and The Rest engages.

Ok so at a recent exhibition that I had a painting in someone asked me “what’s your painting about?” in a way that suggested she expected an immediate answer.

But a painting is not like a book, film or cartoon. Its primary objectness is not of a narrative nature or purpose. To begin with it is static and immediate. It’s all there right now on the canvas. Yes there is context. My context while painting it for example or its socio-economic and temporal context. I don’t work in a vacuum and often anger for example can be an energising coefficient in the process. Sometimes this spills over into illustration. But it’s still only an illustration of the act of painting whilst angry, not a painting of the thing that i am angry about.

Part of me hates these situations to the point of mind-goes-blank. “What’s your art about?” What kind of fucking question is that!? Fuck I’m going to have to use words like ‘ineffable’ and ‘materials’ and ‘discourse’ or ‘narrative’, ‘context’, ‘migratory’…or ‘trauma’, ‘borders’, ‘landscape’, ‘relationship’!

So i mumbled something like “it’s about the materials”.

Occasionally, rarely, you meet someone who draws out of you through careful questioning what you’re all about. Can I be that person to myself?

With an exhibition coming up i need to at least try to organise my thinking. Why? Because I’m offering my work to another and the viewer needs an in. I am also a viewer of art and i know that one can view art as an object in itself as oneself with a viewers context, and as an object in the world with its own context. The problem is having to verbalise complex internal and external processes in a conversational way because viewers, that is to say consumers, myself included, benefit on a certain from accessibility

And yes, this has been up to now, an exercise in avoiding answering the question

“What is your art about?”

Because the answer is of course

Hopefully it’s not about anything.

And here’s a paradox. By being honest and saying these paintings are not about anything other than what they contain and the activity that they resulted from, a viewer, not being offered a narrative, a story behind the painting, feels excluded even though its an open invitation for the viewer to experience their own narrative.

And that imagined intuitive interviewer might ask

“Then do you make paintings for the pleasure of presenting them to viewers for them to have their own experience?”

Answer No. I make them in order for me to be presented with them and for them to be things in themselves in relation to eachother.

So am I excused from writing an artist statement?

No. So fucking get on with it.

Recent work

Stumbling upon the source of a river or spying some half-unearthed artifact in a remote field holds a place in my imagination when I’m out walking. Both desires are metaphors for exploring the caves, tunnels, underground lakes of the unconscious. When I was young i wanted to be an archaeologist of course, but then realised id rather make the artefacts than find them in the mud. I seem to have been playing hide and seek with materials recently. Burying them. Revealing them. Ive also hurt my leg which makes painting very painful. Perhaps that explains the red and black.

Some new work in progress…

Ive become increasingly conscious of the curious fact that I make Rules Based Art and perhaps always have. In my recent long form Artists Statement (see previous post) I spoke about allowing my behaviour to interact with tools and materials. Now I realise that as I begin to behave (that is to say, pick up tool, pick up paint, apply to material, or in the case of stone, choose stone, move stone, pick up tools) I am waiting for The Rules to manifest. Each new piece, with its unique environment (detritus from previous work on floor around canvas, particular location of tools for example) can influence what The Rules might be. A Rule might be “ah – the 1 inch paint brush is to be pushed across the canvas” or “right – the side of the brush is to be driven into the canvas through the paint” or “hmm – the blade is to spread the paint between the canvas and the paper only very little, or to its maximum extent, or only in one direction” or “all activity will stop now” etc. The Rules only manifest as the work progresses. The Rules come from the interaction between tool, material and behaviour. There is no intention other than to begin and usually even beginning is without intention as it might happen while I am walking past the canvas on the floor on my way to doing something else entirely unrelated to painting.

Untitled (100/100cm) oil, acrylic, iron oxide, carbon, cement

Artist Statement

Im currently applying to have my work shown in various online and real world exhibitions. The Artists Statement is usually central to this and it’s useful but very challenging to write. The nature of each competition or opportunity being different to any other, the artists statement often needs to be specific to each one. For example, as a sculptor and painter I can have one for my painting, one for sculpture and one that covers both. Also, there is the methodology statement describing tools, materials, techniques or processes, and there is the conceptual statement describing why one makes this stuff in the way one does and what does it mean? The first part is straightforward enough, though ones process can be highly alchemical and obscure, but the second part is less straightforward.

When trying to explain the whys and whats of my work I find myself going down a self-analysis rabbit hole and it’s very difficult to maintain coherence or even to find the words at all. Often one is limited to 200 words and is forced to over-simplify and one worries about the consequences of getting it wrong as there are so many rules for a statement and so it can come out grey, opaque and insipid. Also when writing this kind of a statement one should be brutally honest and that is not always easy. Maybe this is where one’s website or blog comes in. This territory is mine to do with as I please. And so here is my new Artists Statement.

I think a lot. I think about certain things more than others. I think about how the English language isn’t helpful when thinking about certain things like the nature of time. I think about how the Unconscious and Conscious minds communicate with each other. I think about whether or not Consciousness happens inside or outside of the brain. I think about the extent to which our observation of the universe and all it contains is different to the real universe. I think about how the journey into the vastness of the Universe is the same distance as the journey to the depths of the psyche. I think about how language is fairly useful in thinking about the externals of things but not the internals. I think about whether or not dreams stop when you wake up, or carry on. And there is also the part of me who thinks about man-made climate change, a Hyperobject of hyperobjects, and how every other object including all thought and all art now lies within its borders.

Now the temptation is to make connections between the thought and the art, for example by suggesting that the paintings are of a non-human universe where things are unobserved by consciousness and so remain unresolved. Or that they are of objects waiting in the future for the present to arrive, or they are objects in the future at the very instant where the present arrives. Or they are of objects known to Consciousness before they are dismantled by our senses and rebuilt in league with language. Or they are places one could visit on a journey to the centre of the Self or even the Soul. Or they represent my feelings about the future or the present and so on.

But I don’t intentionally make art about thoughts. That would be a narrative, illustrative art.

I am interested in making thoughtless new objects as far as is at all possible

Non-representational..

Non-illustrative..

Non-conceptual..

Non-metaphorical..

Why?

Because representing or trying to extract meaning from something that already has its own existence doesn’t excite me but trying to make a new object is a way of short-circuiting my thought processes and perception by sharing authorship with things, giving as much agency as possible to tools, materials and behaviour and shrinking the role of the intellect, of intention and of the mind and ego to at the most an equal share in authorship. It’s a kind of object-oriented ontology I guess. The new object is then one that has its own being, but no meaning. Until it re-enters the grinder and starts on its own journey.

Recent Methodology

I don’t make art a lot. I put a lot into it when i do. In order to make art I have to sneak up on myself and work fast. Instinctively. Perhaps ferociously. Anger can creep in. Things get messy. That’s why, when painting, I have developed the black border and the carbon ‘background’ – they help to contain the chaos. I have used Arches paper, unstretched canvas, stretched canvas and wood panels as a background. I make a border using masking tape and paint – grate compressed charcoal on the surface on the floor stapled to plywood if sheet canvas, agitate it by shaking, knocking it, throwing bits of carbon at it, sweep it with a broom over and over, apply the paint direct from the tube or, in the case of ‘Three’ for example, daub it on with a very full brush, overlay thin paper like tracing paper, disperse it using hands, trowels but especially Stanley knife blades, remove overlay paper, sometimes then intervene further as with ‘Raft’ for example, otherwise that’s it.

It’s the dispersal where things get intense, unpredictable, scary, upsetting. It’s the removal of overlay where things are presented as they are, like in a frantic out of control photographers dark room. I usually despair at this point. Fucking waste of time, energy, paint, canvas. Fucking give up. Useless. Maybe the next day it starts to speak a bit, maybe a week later. There’s something there. It has its own life. Relief. Exhaustion. Try to remember the exact method – how did that happen? Try to repeat. Fail. Stop making art. Wait.